Thick-/-Thin

I know what I want & I know what I need. Preferences aren't bad unless they get in the way of what you truly need. Yeah, I want somebody that's big in the front & rear ends. I guess I'm stuck on these trends. I'd rather go for light skin than dark skin. Someone that's not too tall & age.... Doesn't seem to matter. Of course, I won't go to crazy. Natural over weave.  Perfume & make up don't really care for. Yes, I'll go for someone that's thick instead of thin, but what I really need is someone that will stay with me through the thick & thin. Some call it being, "whipped" others, "keeping them in check". Me, I just call it what it is loyalty. Not all men & women are dogs,  but it is hard to find one that's not. Yes, physical appearance is sweet to the eye, but what happens when you find out that their personality is sour? I want someone, smart, funny, nice, & kind. Though, what I really want is someone that's trustworthy, someone can depend on, but nobody wanna lay there hurt down. So now we keep so many games its not even funny, but the only games I'm playing is on my Wii, 360, & PS3. A long lasting relationship is watt I'm looking for but how can I do that with someone I can't trust. So is it really wrong that I keep to myself? I'm looking for someone that is willing to keep my last name, someone that is willing to love me while I do the same. Times have change. The older you get the less willing you are to keep playing games. So I hope knowin this I hope we change soon. How r we ready for the vows & the wedding ring? If we can't let go of our suffering? So I give it all away to the lord so that hate can leave & love can seek in. Slowly but surly I will find the one that I'm ment to be with and no matter what problems we have we'll work thruogh it. I promise to keep her happy and never hurt her intentionally.  I know nothing is perfect in me still I'm willing to be fixed as long as she don't have mixed feelins about us. So like I said, I know what I want and I know what I need a women that will stay through the thick & thin with me.

Lil' Ms. (Friend Zone)

Talking from the heart. Where do I start. Its hard to settle when you want more. I think of you everyday. What more can I say? You say that its better to just stay friends, because you're scared something will come between us. Still I'm willing to take that chance. Love is a gamble like Russian rullet. If the relationship doesn't end you get to go again. You tell me this feeling will go away. You say its just an innocent crush. I think its more than that and now its not lust. Answer me this how can I get jealous of someone that's not mine? Why can't I get you out of my head after all this time? I wanna tell you how I truly feel, but I don't want you to feel awkward around me..... I guess the Christian thing to say is his grace is enough. That might be what I need to say, but not what I want. I should just let it out I want you! I love you! You don't want me in your drama, but I know more than these boys you're trying be with. Why would you want a stranger rather than a friend? What's funny everybody but you can see that we would make a good couple. Take a couple of seconds to think of that. I'm sorry if I seem pushy but can you give me a sure answer why we can't be together instead of, "I don't know". Because maybe is still a possibility. So I'll wait until I find somebody who loves me the same way I love you.